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Unexpected.

Honestly?

I didn't like expect today at all, i thought i would never have to like "interact" with you again.

Thought i could just move on from a distance, without you.

I thought it'd be easy that way, to leave you behind.

But then today came & i was like, i can't do this.

I've been telling myself i can for so long, but when im looking at you face to face,

& just now when i was forced to actually like look into your eyes, i felt everything i'd already forgotten (or so i thought, really) again.

All the walls i built up just came crumbling down.

Its not like i haven't done this before.

Its not like im stupid (okay i am aren't i.)

And i keep on posting these stupid, pathetic statuses online.

Just because in my heart, deep down i wish that you would see em' & feel something.

And today what i really wanted in that split second when you looked at me?

I just wanted to ask you, why?

Why did this happen?

Why?

I wanted to ask you, don't you miss me at all?

I wanted to ask you if you ever cried, if you ever think about me.

I don't understand.

You said that you hoped i would, but i really don't.

Didn't you care about me?

I don't get it.

If you truly don't care about me, than why do i feel like you do?

Im an ass for even thinking about this.

Why did i feel like the way you looked at me today, was different from the way you look at others?

Why can't i just move on like a strong person would?

Why do i still feel that pang when someone mentions you in conjunction with another girl?

This is screwed up.

I just tried to avoid looking at you today, when all i really wanted to ask you then was, why did you hurt me?

Why did this happen?

I don't get it.

How can it be that the one person i felt was so right for me, is gone?

And why do i feel sometimes like you still care?

I know, people will tell me, no, he doesn't give a shit about you.

Nothing's changed you know?

That's dumb i know.

But forget it im dumb already anyway so who cares.

I don't want this.

Truth is i miss you.

And yes, im a big FAT MORON for saying that.

Yes i am, indeed. :X

Whatever people can think what they like. Personally, i don't care anymore.

I said everyone deserves a second chance on fb yesterday.

But what if the person doesn't even want a second chance?

❤ "Unexpected." was Posted On: 10/13/2011 @9:54 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿