This post is meant for two people.
I've been thinking bout this awhile, long enough. so i decided to post this.

The first part is meant for the one who was first.
I just wanted to say im really sorry.
Whatever i did last year was really immature.
I should've never bothered with your affairs after we seperated.
They weren't my business anyway, and i don't know why i interfered then.
I think i was too angry and rash.
I wasn't thinking straight.
I know i should've said this long ago, its long due.
Due a year.
But i don't know how to say im sorry to you.
Its too random and weird.
So. I figured this'd be the best way to.
I've got nothing much more to say really, but to wish you all the best for your future endevours.
I know you think im still angry and pissed and never letting you go, but i have a long time ago.
Not saying that out of spite, but i think we both knew we just aren't right.
Maybe somewhat right, after 3 years, but it just isn't.
So, takecare, and good luck with everything. (:


The next part of this post is for you.
I don't think you'll ever read this.
I don't know if you've already forgotten i exist.
That we were once friends.
That you'd text me each night to tell me not to cry myself to sleep.
One message from you could make me smile, and i remember that first time in school that you waved hi to me.
You smiled so brightly, looking up at the stairs, as i walked down,
you waved to me.
I didn't even wave back, just gave you a slight smile, and almost fell down the steps(LOL), but i was like thinking, why the hell is my heart beating so damn fast.
That was then.
You still touch me like you did then.
No one else could take your place.
Every essay you write, shows me more about you.
That one essay you wrote kindof showed me the person you wanted to be.
It was sweet, though not perfect, but better than mine(: and it showed me you.
Those people only see the outside of you.
They don't know who's inside is someone i wanna take my lifetime to know.
But you've never given me that chance.
I don't blame you.
Not as much as i should, anyway.
Cause i think love isn't something that can be forced.
Anyway.
I havent seen you for like a month now since the last time we took a picture together.
I've begun to forget you and how i felt.
But i know if we're ever friends again.
I don't know how to forget then.
Cause no matter who i meet next time they're always gna get compared to you.
I know its my fault for bringing us to where we are today.
We can't even be normal friends and it hurts so damn much.
I miss our friendship.
I miss the long conversations and the way you look at me.
I thought trying to act like i care bout having an awesome social life would fill that hole,
but when it comes to the end of the day, you're still the one.
And it doesnt help that im a stupid cow that just runs away from problems when they're there.
I just want things back.
i want my life back.
I don't want to go to work and get scolded by my boss.
I wanna go to school.
I want to go back to december(the song lol. applies to us, if there's an us left.), when i had you by my side.

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