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Hurt.

I can't believe that m' blogging again so soon.

Well, i've quite a lot to say today i guess.

Everything that's happening in my life right now makes me realize how angry with you i still am.

And you know what?

Maybe its my fault, for putting my heart out there previously and letting you crush it into little pieces.

But really, do you even give a shit about how i feel?

How anyone else who fell for you before felt?

You have no idea how much of me you've taken away because of what you did.

And you know what's the worst part?

You still WANT to do it over and over again.

You don't care that i feel like you have ruined me for good.

I won't ever be the same person i ever was before.

Thank you.

Honestly, thanks a lot.

You taught me that idiots like you are liars.

I tried to be nice to you.

I thought you would finally be normal and polite when we talked, but you didn't ever bother to do that.

And really, i'm long over you.

But because of you, I don't even dare to think about relationships anymore.

They scare me, because I don't want to be hurt ever again.

Every time I want to fall in love, I back off.

I ruin things.

I over-think, because I'm convinced everything will go wrong, everything I do isn't right.

And m' afraid that everyone is just going to end up like you.

I'm scared.

I've become so paranoid that when i look in the mirror, I can hardly recognize myself.

Where's the girl that would never give up hope?

Where's the person that would take challenges and face em' straight in their face?

I don't know who i am now.

The smallest things make me want to cry.

I don't even know why.

I keep thinking things are wrong, even when they aren't.

I don't know how to move on.

I don't know what to do.

How to pick myself up again.

The more i try to protect myself, the more it hurts me.

And you will never be sorry for everything you've done.

Honestly, do me a favor.

Stop talking to me.

Leave me alone.

Get out of my life since you're not supposed to be in it anymore.

This you can do right?

It might ease my pain a little.

Thanks.

❤ "Hurt." was Posted On: 6/24/2011 @5:26 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

Updates on my life:P

Hi everyone!(:

Im back to blogging again...haha i think m' not really a good blogger(according to proper standards) because my blogging is pretty inconsistent.

Anyway, I'm really doing this because I can't really think of anything else I'd rather do now, except maybe to punch certain people (because of something that happened), but since I can't do that, I'll settle for this. :P

This is the final week of our holiday, in poly.

The first term was a little rough I suppose, since I'm still not accustomed to the system and the group projects and all.

But overall, it was a good learning experience and i'm really glad that my class is so awesome^^, with funny & cute people LOL.

That's a pretty important thing really, if you take into consideration the number of projects we have.

We have no exams really, which is why I have the time for blogging because I'm not studying for MST, which is the mid-semester test that everyone else is taking except DTVM students.

HAHAHAHAS. We're awesomee:DDD

AHH i love my class^^

Some of the modules are pretty challenging though.

I've realized m' pretty weak in photoshop-.-

Visual Comm damnit. :(

Also, I thought WMP (writing across media platforms) would be a module I'm really good at,

but the test proved me wrong. -.-

That's just sad...m' still trying to improve my summary skills, which when i think bout it carefully, I was never all that good at summarizing stuff.

But i'll work on it i guess.

What other choice do I have, really?

Well, enough about work. More about my cca, dancesport! :D

I've been practicing quite alot for the competition this saturday.

Freaking nervous, really.

But I really want to gain experience and I think that by taking part this time I should be able to achieve that.

I'm going for dance practice later, anyway.

It's just normal practice, with stretching:P On wednesdays, it's stretching, on thursdays, it's the partner dance.

So far, it's pretty fun i guess.

Though I'm feeling slightly tired right now.

Going for an appointment later..hope it goes alright. :X

Alright, i've blogged enough for a day.

Bye! XD

❤ "Updates on my life:P" was Posted On: 6/22/2011 @10:19 AM | 0 lovely comments ✿

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