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I can't fight alone.

Fight for you, I have.

Trying to make things work, I am.

I'm hurt from everything that you said, everything that happened.

Yet I still can't forget the good things you've done for me.

You were so good to me, better than anyone.

Keep asking myself, did i do something wrong?

What happened?

I always blame myself to a certain extent at least.

I still love you and I'm trying to save our relationship.

You used to not just be my boyfriend, you were my best friend, the person i could rely on whenever I got upset, hurt.

What happened to us?

You've done alot of things for me before...but no longer.

I'm not being unappreciative, but i need to tell you the truth.

You still mean everything to me but do I still mean everything to you?

For wanting to see you too much I'm sorry.

I'm trying to get used to this sudden change- in you too.

I understand we all need space, but I need you too.

It hurts you know?

That day I told you i couldn't rely on you much anymore, it didn't seem to bother you much.

I don't know, really, I can't guess.

I can't only be here when you want me to, you said you're trying but I can't feel that too much...

I know I'm trying. Trying doesn't mean avoiding arguments even if we're hurt inside, it means working them out together.

I want nothing more than to work things out with you so we can be happy again.

I've done alot too, all I want is to know my love is wasted and that you still care.

I need to know if you do- by actions too.

I don't want arguments anymore- but I need the truth about how you feel, or if this is the truth, I want to believe it..

I miss us, do you?

❤ "I can't fight alone." was Posted On: 10/05/2012 @3:08 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

Do i?

Remember when we didn’t have nothing
But a perfect simple kind of lovingBaby those sure were the daysThere was a time our love ran wild and freeBut now I’m second guessing everything I see
Do I turn you on at all when I kiss you babyDoes the sight of me wanting you drive you crazyDo I have your love, am I still enoughTell me don’t I, or tell me do I babyGive you everything that you ever wantedWould you rather just turn away and leave me lonelyDo I just need to give up and get on with my life?

Tell me baby, do we get one more try?

Been so down these few days that sometimes, I'm tempted to go to sleep & never wake up.
Life is too tough sometimes, especially when your confused & don't know what to do to make everything alright again. The question of when that will happen is still on my mind, causing me to have disturbed sleep and an unbearable feeling of heartache.

I blame no one but myself for the wrong decisions I make, honestly.

Other times I'm just no longer sure of what's right and wrong anymore.

Someone teach me how to keep up with the changes in life and people?

Because keeping up is getting real tough for me.

I know I have to be strong, I'm doing my best to hold it in.

I have to and I will.

Couldn't help but cry when I re-read one of the birthday cards my family gave me for my 17th birthday. They're probably the only ones who feel my hurt when I'm hurt- cry with me and for me.

The pink card even had a cute little elephant on it, which made me even sadder:o

I miss being a kid, hiding behind the door to wait for Daddy to come home.

He would push the door open slowly and i would run to hug him.

Actually, I miss my happy self.

❤ "Do i?" was Posted On: 10/03/2012 @12:51 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

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