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HI GUYS

Hi everyone D:

I just want to say that i am soooooo lazy to do research right now.

I've already chosen my network, which is FOX (Y) but am super lazy to actually go & summarize how it started & came about.

I keep going on facebook instead, and youtube.

Clearly i've got some escapism issues. :(

But anyway!

I'm going out soon to watch the "Wonder Boys" which i think is a movie screening at the Singapore Arts Museum.

I actually am quite worried that i won't have time to finish at least section 1 of the research paper by the end of this week, but hopefully i will!

Shall finish question one and two when i come home tonight, because yilling and I will be going to Clement's church tomorrow to celebrate Annabella's birthday(:

Alright no more time to blog! >.<

I shall go prepare to go out.

I wonder if i should wear my boots.

Bye everyone! (:

❤ "HI GUYS" was Posted On: 10/29/2011 @2:29 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

At hilltop

Overly bored.

Hey guys!

I'm currently at the hilltop library at SP.

And yes i know, the pictures above are retarded.

I was really bored while taking em', okay? :P

So whatever. (:

Anyways, i'm still waiting for the library stuff to call me by "the end of the day" which, is in 10 mins, i might add.

This is because the library closes at 5.

Oh my. :(

That aside, i have many assignments to do recently.

Just had a presentation this morning, and filming for the VPPP video for ca1 is next monday.

Stress much? :(

❤ "At hilltop" was Posted On: 10/28/2011 @4:43 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

Stay.

Hey.

This post is for you, whether you read it or not:X

I just wanted to say that it's not all your fault.

I've contributed to every aspect of whatever's going on now.

I know, i shouldn't have.

I guess, like you, i couldn't help it at that point of time.

I wish i could really blame you & get upset & scream, but i can't because i know exactly how it's like to be where you are.

And that's why i'm not even blaming you.

I guess we're both the sort that thinks too much huh? :(

Sucks.

I'm really not as good as you think i am too.

Sometimes i really hate myself, especially the part of me that is so easily affected by these things.

And that's why i have this fear of getting attached i guess, because i really don't want to affect anyone badly, or myself.

Trust me, i hate taking things seriously too.

I'm always trying not to care, but i just can't do it i guess.

Sometimes even if there's something i want to say, i won't say it cause i can't bear to lose the person i care about, cause i'm afraid too, that my heart will be broken if he leaves.

But you're right.

Right in saying that we don't really know each other that well yet, that this is all going too fast.

And i agree.

Right now all i want to say is that, even if we can't be together yet, or even if we never do (nothing seems to be sure in life, eh?) I still want to be friends. >.<

No matter what happens between us, i don't want to see you or anyone else hurt.

Because that's the one thing that i would never want to happen.

Take care alright?

And don't forget what i said today, kay. >.<

I don't want to be the one who'll leave.

And all i wanted you to know, that i hoped you would know (even if i didn't know you well enough) was that i could be the one who would stay.

That i could be the one who wouldn't make you sad, wouldn't judge you because i know how it feels like to be judged.

And i think there was this part of me that just wanted you to know that no matter what you think, you aren't as undeserving as you think you are.

And i still think that way. :X

I hope you know that i'm not the kind of person who just checks out, when things go wrong.

I'm not.

I won't ever be the one that hurts you, or anyone, even if it means hurting myself instead.

❤ "Stay." was Posted On: 10/24/2011 @9:41 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

Domino

I can taste the tension like a cloud of smoke' in the air,

Now m' breathing like I'm runnin' cause you're taking me there~

Yo people! :P

I'm in love with Domino by Jessie J.

I'm not really into her music, but i really like this song.

Woohoo.

Now to talk about these few days!

Well, everything's been pretty normal i guess.

I'm liking the new modules a lot, luckily. :D

And i had quite a bit of fun this week too, especially during bowling & on friday night. (:

However....have been feeling quite ._. these 2 days actually, but there's nothing much to say bout' that.

All i have to do is to keep telling myself to not repeat my mistakes.

:X Which apparently, is no easy feat.

* I WILL NOT DO IT AGAIN. NO I WON'T. *

No matter how hard it's gonna be.

Whatever it takes.

I can't afford to do this again & again, or i'll really start to feel like an idiot.

YES YOU CAN CY.

>.<

Okay, i'm like talking to myself here.

Well i gotta go off soon anyways, to watch my indian show-.-

And i have to write a one-page review on it.

I definitely have nothing to say.

*Squeezes creative juices out of brain*

Alright, i'm going off now.

Bye!

I couldn't think of what picture to put...so used this. looks kindof weird, but oh well..

❤ "Domino" was Posted On: 10/23/2011 @4:39 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

No point.

Hey guys i'm back!

It's the second day of school reopening.

It's been alright so far i guess, except that i really need to keep telling myself i must not repeat my mistakes.

Gotta make a comeback this semester whether i like it or not!

Plus i realized not speaking up is such a dumb thing to do & from now on, even if it isn't my "thing", i need to train myself to speak up.

Its absolutely necessary in life.

Anyway!

About my previous post, since i can't exactly leave things hanging can i?

I've finally decided i won't ever talk about him again.

Everything's cleared up in my mind now, and im over it.

So yeah, if you ever read this, just know i'm over you. (;

Just to clarify things.

I mean, i have a right to start living my life the way i want it.

And i'm not gonna let you get in the way.

I deserve to have someone treat me better, someone who'll actually like me for who i am.

Instead of people who just try to use me instead. Thanks for the "compliment", but i don't need it, okay?

I hope....that things are gonna work out & that it'll all be okay.

Part of me right now, is asking, where're things going? I have no idea...i don't know really, i don't understand much of what's going on too.

But i'm just going with the flow, taking it day by day.

After all, too "fast" is the mistake i made before so i'm taking it slow.

I don't want to keep making mistakes, in every area of life.

Especially academically.

I really have to do well this semester.

Focus cy, focus!! >.<

You can do it!! :DD

*I must have faith in myself*!

And to anyone who thinks i can't, you're wrong & i just wanna let you know right now yeah. (;

Okay i shall be going offline now, bye everyone.

I won't give in to the temptation of using the computer any longer.

Ciao! <3

Silly i know...but i sorta missed you today:( Wondering what you're doing now, & if you've thought of me too? >.< Can't wait to see you soon. (:

❤ "No point." was Posted On: 10/18/2011 @9:29 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

Unexpected.

Honestly?

I didn't like expect today at all, i thought i would never have to like "interact" with you again.

Thought i could just move on from a distance, without you.

I thought it'd be easy that way, to leave you behind.

But then today came & i was like, i can't do this.

I've been telling myself i can for so long, but when im looking at you face to face,

& just now when i was forced to actually like look into your eyes, i felt everything i'd already forgotten (or so i thought, really) again.

All the walls i built up just came crumbling down.

Its not like i haven't done this before.

Its not like im stupid (okay i am aren't i.)

And i keep on posting these stupid, pathetic statuses online.

Just because in my heart, deep down i wish that you would see em' & feel something.

And today what i really wanted in that split second when you looked at me?

I just wanted to ask you, why?

Why did this happen?

Why?

I wanted to ask you, don't you miss me at all?

I wanted to ask you if you ever cried, if you ever think about me.

I don't understand.

You said that you hoped i would, but i really don't.

Didn't you care about me?

I don't get it.

If you truly don't care about me, than why do i feel like you do?

Im an ass for even thinking about this.

Why did i feel like the way you looked at me today, was different from the way you look at others?

Why can't i just move on like a strong person would?

Why do i still feel that pang when someone mentions you in conjunction with another girl?

This is screwed up.

I just tried to avoid looking at you today, when all i really wanted to ask you then was, why did you hurt me?

Why did this happen?

I don't get it.

How can it be that the one person i felt was so right for me, is gone?

And why do i feel sometimes like you still care?

I know, people will tell me, no, he doesn't give a shit about you.

Nothing's changed you know?

That's dumb i know.

But forget it im dumb already anyway so who cares.

I don't want this.

Truth is i miss you.

And yes, im a big FAT MORON for saying that.

Yes i am, indeed. :X

Whatever people can think what they like. Personally, i don't care anymore.

I said everyone deserves a second chance on fb yesterday.

But what if the person doesn't even want a second chance?

❤ "Unexpected." was Posted On: 10/13/2011 @9:54 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

THE CAMWHORE PEOPLEEEE.

I'm a little too lazy to blog today...so uploaded lots of photos instead!

With my new hairdo too. Which i MUST SAY IS really, REALLY HARD to maintain.

Sigh.

But i love curly hair anyway. (:

Tarafuku Japanese Resturant @ 313 Somerset! :DD Love these umbrellas.

In the toliet with Micheeellee. Hee hee.

We finally got up the courage to ask the waitress to help us take a picture

after "shamelessly" camwhoring. Hahaha. Whatever, yo. :P

HMPH!

More full-length pictures. :P

Somebody's Gelato...hahaha..:P Green tea & cookies n cream= (Y)

More pictures with the pretty girl^^

Michelle's first serving of Gelato. I only took ONE SERVING. XD

Hehehe.

Tempura & Raw Squid Sushi.

Actually im not like totally sure whether its raw or not!

Michellee! <3 Isn't she pretty? Aww. (;

My "smiley" face & Michelle's "fierce-ish" face. Hahaha.

Kay that's it people!

Be back soon! ((:

School is starting next week..:(

❤ "THE CAMWHORE PEOPLEEEE." was Posted @11:16 AM | 0 lovely comments ✿

Time flies.

Hi guys!

Thats me with my "short" hair above.

It's still long though, in real life. :(

But i always wanted that kindof hair. Hahaha.

Anyways!

This morning what i really wanted to do was really to read my book on creative writing to improve myself, workout, download my timetable (which i did, luckily) and remember to take my vitamins. Haha, lame i know.

Going to see the doctor later, i hope everything'll be alright. >.<

Not gonna start thinking bout' it!

Anyways, had dance yesterday as usual.

I think my new partnership think is working out well, luckily(:

I must keep on trying to improve myself!

But i was late for 30 minutes yesterday, cause i was caught in the rain.

Rushed all the way from a bbq with clement, jason, chantel, zhihan & their friends, at woodlands rosewood condominium, where annzy lives too! Hahaha.

Isn't it a coincidence!

Took many pictures with people there, they're awesome! Haha.

Hope to see em' again soon. (:

Anyway, i'm going to go off now!

Need to do some of the things i planned to do before i go off!

More dance practice tomorrow, my first time doing hip-hop dance (an actual performance that is) with angie, yi ling& some modern dancers from secondary school.

We'll be doing a performance on arts-night & i really hope i can catch up on the steps.

If i'm really slow tomorrow, please forgive me, i'm more used to the classical side of dance, like latin, so maybe i'm not as good as hip-hop, but i'll do my best!

Oh by the way, this (below) is a really awesome book. I thought it was a typical chick-lit book till i actually read it. So do look for it, buy it, whatever, & read it! (: You won't regret it.

Kay i know i look super weird in this pic, but im just trying to promote the book so nvm:P

Anyways, the book is called Stranded In Paradise & it's written by Lori Copeland.

Its a "story of letting go" as the front cover says, but the letting go issues the main character has, is really not the usual BGR sort.

Very meaningful, do check it out!

Bye!

❤ "Time flies." was Posted On: 10/07/2011 @12:04 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

Everyday deserves a chance.

Okay, i know this image is rather small. But i like the whole "flower ballerina thing!"

So bear with me. Hahaha.

Hey guys!

I'm here again. (:

Today's a really cold, windy morning. (Y)

Anyway, i was reading a book called "Everyday deserves a chance" just now.

It says that every 24 hours is a gift & that we should treasure everyday- not waiting for tomorrow and not dwelling on yesterday or the mistakes of our past, but that we should focus on today and decide to make today a great day, despite of whatever we feel on the day itself.

I must try to do this & learn from this book!

Here's a small part of it to inspire you guys (if there's anyone:P)

"DAYLIFTER:

The next time you are mired in a bad day; check your outlook with these three questions:

1. What do i feel guilty about?

2. What am i worried about?

3. What am i about?

Reflect on your answers with these reminders:

Yesterday...forgiven.

Tommorow....surrendered.

Today...clarified.

Jesus's design for a good day makes such sense. His grace erases guilt. His oversight removes fear. His direction removes confusion."

-As taken from Every day Deserves a Chance by Max Lucado.

Basically, what this book is trying to say is that by giving every day the opportunity it deserves to be a good one, we enjoy decent days. And when a day is decent, we "resolve" to give the next day the same chance. Before you know it you've enjoyed a good week, a good month, a good couple months, a good half year, a good year, & then many good years and in this fashion, "good lives are built" as Max Lucado said.

True? (:

Why i suddenly read this book is because recently i've been starting to feel like my priorities are starting to change & definitely not in the right direction.

i don't want that to happen any longer.

I didn't even use to be this way...

and its not that i don't like who i am...but i do to some certain extent now.

I feel like i've been so shallow ._.

But i guess it takes time to slowly change?

I shouldn't have blamed anyone for my changing, i could've tried not to.

Guess what i want to say is i want to stop living as though i'm gonna live forever.

I think why i'm thinking about this now is cause i'm going to see the doctor this friday, and i'm going to keep praying & hope everything's gonna be alright. *Fingers crossed*

Please let nothing be wrong...i really want everything to be okay.

(And those reading this post, i don't have any terminal illness, so don't worry) But do pray for me if you can! >.<

Can't say what exactly i'm seeing the doctor for, but just know it's affecting my health.

Thanks! (:

Im going to eat breakfast now.

Then meeting clement & chantel later for lunch(:

Gonna practice dance (not cca) after that!

Byeee. :D

❤ "Everyday deserves a chance." was Posted On: 10/04/2011 @10:12 AM | 0 lovely comments ✿

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