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The end of 2011

Hello everyone!

Its finally the last day of 2011! woohoo.

Okay im like being lame again-.-

This year is ending on such a different note than how it started.

I feel like my entire life has changed in this year.

I've gotten to know so many awesome people & i love em' all(:

I've also gotten to work with many different people & though many times it hasn't been easy i'm really grateful for the experience too, knowing it will pay off in the future when i have to work with people i don't know.

Throughout the course of this year i have discovered many new things, about work, life & of course, people.

Never in my life have i interacted with some many different people on a daily basis.

Its tiring, but i love it. Haha.

I really hope i'll do just fine this semester.

My POOR GPA OMG:(

I really gotta buck up man.

Or i'll just die if i don't get into university.

Okay maybe i won't die, but i'll be super disappointed.

>.<

Now its time to stop talking about work & talk about friends instead.

Like i said, i've really gotten to know many interesting people & i'm so grateful for that.

You guys are the best! (:

Especially yl & my dance friends, i super love you guys. ~xoxo

As for my family, i really appreciate all you guys have done for me.

I know you will never get to read this...but i'm still gonna say it.

Mum & Dad, though you guys may be strict parents sometimes, i still love you(:

Because you guys are awesome in so many other ways, and we'll always be a tight family despite our differences. I know i can be super spoilt at times, i'm trying to change, really.

And of course, the last section of this post is dedicated to you.

Sweet uh. (;

I know you're not feeling well right now, take care & hope you'll get better in time for our date later haha. :(

Though we've only been together for a really short time i can see that you're a really good guy & i'm not gonna let you go despite my insecurities & what nots.

And even though i know i'm super different from her (which is a good thing i hope T.T) i'm certain that you like me cause of who i am.

Its still new to me but i'm slowly beginning to be able to see myself in this, with you. (:

I just hope i'll be good enough for you. :(

But either way i'm glad i'm ending the year with you & i'm sure we'll have a good time later. <3

I also want to thank all those people who have really tried to get me down, because its all thanks to you that i'm here today with awesome friends & someone that genuinely cares about me, by my side. (: So despite what you did, it didn't work. ._.

Alright, im going to go off now.

Love y'all! (:

BYE 2011, WELCOME 2012! :D

❤ "The end of 2011" was Posted On: 12/31/2011 @11:03 AM | 0 lovely comments ✿

Starting Anew.

I'm finally back to blog! (:

Well the holidays are finally ending & i'm glad to say that most of my days have been spent in fun. ^.^

So many things have happened during this holiday...o.O

One of my dreams came true...somewhat...& that's that i now have you. <3

I'm still getting used to that...trying out the term "boyfriend" isn't something i've been doing for a long while.

And i'm really grateful that i've found someone as good as you...who understands my fears & why i'm so afraid of relationships.

I'm happy that you're willing to give me more time too. >.<

I know im like super troublesome, haha.

But i'm sure that you'll be able to deal with it, cause i have faith in you, even if i have little to no faith in me.

After all, i've never seen any guy quite as romantic as you.

That's for sure. (:

Haha & i don't think you'll see this post until i tell you i have a blog, which i will later. :P

I used to say the term i love you really losely, because i was never afraid of saying something i didn't mean in the past.

Initially, i didn't mean it of course, but after i got to know the person, in time, i meant it.

But i don't want it to be like that with you.

I want to say it and mean it. >.<

Because i know you'll mean it too.

I just want to give myself this one chance to appreciate life & be happy, with you.

Sorry for my morbid fears & annoying behavior though, i know its really hard on you.

But i won't give up on you even if i feel like running away (which i always do in every relationship) because like you said i know i'll be giving up on this part of myself.

Seeyou later. <3 (:

❤ "Starting Anew." was Posted On: 12/29/2011 @9:17 AM | 0 lovely comments ✿

Not easy.

I wish someone would get it sometimes.

I mean, ever felt like shit when you wake up in the mornings?

Like your hair doesn't look right, and you feel fat & stuff?

The worse part is that when i tell people about this kind of stuff they'll say stuff like, noooo, you're not fat.

Agreed that i am an okay size to most people but its like everyone has parts of their body their unsatisfied with right?

And sometimes i feel really insecure about these issues.

Cause the thing is, good enough is never enough.

Its not that you're ungrateful over what you've.

Its more like competition is too keen & things are too hard, and you are never enough.

Its like seeing how some people don't even have to try & you have to try so hard just to look just as good as them.

I mean, you're just average.

And it doesn't help when you spend so much time just trying to make it work & yet people think its so darn easy.

I really hate this.

Sigh im just in this really bad mood now.

And i really hate it when people say they've no time cause they're busy, but really what they meant is that they have no time for you.

If i really cared someone i would make time no matter what because i would treasure them.

Guess not everyone feels the same way.

❤ "Not easy." was Posted On: 12/20/2011 @7:47 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

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