Hello blog!
I'm just bored from stoning at my com, so taking a short break by updating this dead blog.
Had some thoughts just now, just thought I should summarize them here.

I was thinking about something I usually don't take time to consider:

We go from baby/toddlerhood


To childhood


To becoming a teenager...


Then an young adult, a middle-aged adult, and so on.

Many people think that we start "growing up" when we're teenagers, but in my opinion, we don't.
To me, people realize the bitterness of many of life's aspects when they're teenagers. That's different from growing up. Growing up means you realize life's bitterness, accept it, or form your own view on it and how you're going to live it.

It hardly means complaining about it all the time to anyone who will hear you out, whenever you want.
Decision-making perhaps is a big part of this whole growing up thing, which I think, is something that no matter how old i am, i will never get right. I know i'll never get all the right decisions no matter how old I am, or how much of life I've gone through.

Maybe the "right" decisions are determined by us too, our opinion on what's right and what's wrong.
I think that's the reason why we judge other people (talking about a person's philosophy of life) and say things like, this person is doing the wrong thing by living his/her's life in a certain way.

People grow up when they learn to accept their own philosophies of life-what they determine life to be and see it as, and when they learn to cope with life-and the baggage that comes with it, be it the judgmental eyes of others who disapprove them or their own feelings of guilt for living their life a certain way they want. Of course, part of the process means learning responsibility, which is one aspect that most people will find very difficult (myself included, unfortunately).

Maybe sometimes we also need the strength from ourselves and others, or even from the many bitter experiences of life, even if they hurt us or scar us, to make our lives whole in every aspect so we can live them the way we rightfully deserve and should.

I hope one day I will reach that stage of growing up. That stage that I will look at my life, and be proud of how far I've come no matter how weary my soul is, how tired I am. All that will be worth it as I would be proud to tell myself that I've not just survived life barely, but I've lived it to my own best ability, in little to no comparison with others.

I pray, with all patience and endurance in my heart, that that day will come. (:

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