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I hate you.

For ruining my life, for destroying my trust in everyone else.

Thanks a hell lot yeah.

And yes i know all along i was just some cheapo that you used, thanks really.

And now i'm forced to see all this progressing before my own eyes.

And i have no right to say anything.

I ain't blaming anyone.

You have every right to do what the hell you want.

I'm just mad at myself for being such a stupid dumbo, cheapo that fell for your crap.

You were the only one i ever really loved, and crap that, i'm moving on.

Do you even freaking think about me while doing all these shit in my FREAKING FACE?

NO.

You don't have to.

And i have no right to be mad.

Its ur damn life, do whatever the heck you want with it.

I'm never enough, i'm never good.

Nothing is good enough is it?

I try so hard to make myself better.

I try to make sure my results are okay, that i can live up to the standards of other people.

That i look good enough, normal at least, that i fit in.

I try to be what everyone wants.

But its never, ever good enough.

Am i really so bad that when people get to know me they just don't like me anymore?

And i don't care what most people think, but why you?

Why the hell did you have to come into my life, make me feel like that and that just walk out?

I don't understand.

I don't freaking understand.

One is the person i felt the most for, loved the most and till now i sure as heck don't know why, the other is my friend.

How the hell am i supposed to feel?

I can't curse anyone, i can't do anything, i can't get mad.

I can't do anything.

All i can do is just sit here and cry as im typing this and i hate myself for it.

I keep telling myself i deserve better and maybe i do.

But i feel like all the hurt's just coming back.

And it aint just you.

Why do you people keep doing this?

You lie, then leave.

Screw this shit, i ain't doing it anymore.

I'm bloody tired of all this crap.

I'm never going to be there for anyone again, cause its all bullshit.

I don't get it.

You have no right to hurt anyone just because you might have been hurt or cause you like the fact that you're a player.

Do you know that you could ruin someone else's life cause of that.

I don't even know how to trust anyone anymore.

Cause everytime when i think, hey, this is someone i can trust, the person screws it all up for me.

So forget it.

I'm done trusting and believing in anyone.

You do whatever the heck you want, since i'm just a stupid bitch for saying all these crap here.

I'm closing the door. And i won't open it again.

❤ "I hate you." was Posted On: 11/10/2011 @11:07 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

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