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swore that i'd never let you back in.

you'd think that by now i'd know, cause here we go, go again.

can't be with or without you.

HEY GUYS I AM HERE AGAIN!!!

After what seems like forever right....:(

Just didn't have time to blog i guess.

And honestly I didn't have all that much to say. :P

Well, an update on recent events:

1. I joined dancesport(: Its tiring, but the dance is pretty fun, so i guess i'll be staying on with stefanie, MY DANCE PARTNER:D

hahas.

anyway.

2. There've been many projects and assignments lately, that are pretty tiring i guess. But the hml(heroes, myths & legends) project is over, thank God for that. right now we're still left with DT & VC(which honestly, i don't even want to think about.) I mean c'mon, photoshop exam?>.<

No thanks man. :(

3. I'll be going Gold Coast in the june hols, which are next week, thank God!!!! XD ahhh i can't wait. Last time I didn't appreciate Melbourne & Sydney enough, this time I will.

It's gna be awesome just getting away from S'pore for awhile. XD The weather's been too hot recently.

Well...either than that life's been fine recently i guess.

It's not perfect, but it's not that bad i guess.

I know that 've been pretty sensitive lately, and that's stupid, but right now m' really just trying to not care. It's like, what am I supposed to do? I don't care in that way, but that doesn't mean I don't care as a friend. And I can draw the lines between both just fine, but I don't know why everything is just so freaking upsetting right now. Its like the more upset I get, the more I push you away.

It's like the same, damn thing over and over again.

And honestly, m' freaking sick and tired of caring.

Why do i EVEN BOTHER.

Sigh.

On top of that shit, there are some other issues that are really bothering me, though not much.

But m' not gonna talk bout it here i suppose.

Sigh.

Words that can't be said, things that aren't supposed to be felt.

Oh well.

Sometimes I just wish someone would get it. Cause right now, I don't even get it.

❤ "swore that i'd never let you back in." was Posted On: 5/23/2011 @12:57 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

The start of something new

HI GUYS!

IM BACKKKKKKK:D

After not posting like forever.

Actually i wasn't really intending to post anymore, but m' sitting in the hilltop library now dying of boredom.

Cx's playing with his mouse:P

LOL.

He doesnt know im writing this despite the fact that i think m' looking pretty suspicious.

hahaha.

Anyway.

School has been great so far.

lessons are interesting,

people in my class seem nice:D

And i've made some awesome friends(:

The system's definitely different from secondary school though(:

We've been learning bout the media in like every class, including Gen-ed, which is general education.

Its alright i guess, but i prefer my other lessons.

After all, i chose em' right?

haha.

I can't wait to choose my cca soon:D

Right now m' considering dancesport and photography club.

Maybe i'll join the christian fellowship club too.

Not exactly sure yet, so i suppose i'll just wait for the CCA fair.

Pity no one in class wants to join dance with me:(

But it's alright..i'll just go myself i guess.

Anyway i am getting pretty sick of blogging right now so i'll just sign off here!

Blog again soon.

BYESS PEOPLE(:

Love you!

❤ "The start of something new" was Posted On: 4/25/2011 @1:01 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

READY TO RESET

Photo courtesy of raindropsonredroses

The above is so true. Saw it from someone's tumblr.

Its awesome:D

Went yl's house today to exchange our essential shampoos! haha pretty cool i think.

I took her pink one(for airy, bouncy hair) cause my hair is as straight as a mop D:

haha jk, its not that bad, but its not that good anyway.

And she took my orange essential shampoo that's for smooth, straight, moisturized hair(:

Both seem alright to me.

Went swimming after i came home.

Swam 7 laps.

I think.

;( haven't swam in awhile i suppose?

haha.

then came home to shower.

By then was super tired, but i still played my wii after that to dance and exercise:D

Can't wait to join dance in poly to slim down D:

i am so getting fat.

argh the result of eating and sleeping every freaking day.

Excluding the days i went to work, AND SPEAKING OF WHICH I HAVENT GOT MY SALARY.

THIS IS TOO MUCH AND I WILL NOT SUFFER THIS ATROCITY OKAY I WILL DEMAND MY DAMNED SALARY.

Last time i will say that cause i will be filing a complaint if i realise that my salary has not been placed in my account by next tuesday.

Still dare to go holiday lah.

WE HAVE A CONTRACT IN CASE YOU DON'T REMEMBER DUDE.

I DID NOT WORK FOR FREE.

-.-

Okay m' done!

Humph.

Bye people, loveeeee you guysss:DD

❤ "READY TO RESET" was Posted On: 3/25/2011 @9:34 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

i've finally learnt to give up.
The whole time i just cared about having you by my side i was wasting my time.
You just seem different from the person i first knew.
You aren't the same anymore.
Sometimes i can see who you used to be, or rather who you really are.
But mostly thats just being covered by who you seem to be now.
And m' wondering, do they really know you or do i?
Are you that kind, sweet, responsible, caring guy i knew or are you just, not what i thought you were?
I dont know, cause you won't let me in anymore.
And i want a new life too.
But whatever it is, it doesnt matter anymore.
Cause im not gna care anymore bout trying to get you back into my life, i know its not going anywhere and really?
Im awfully burnt out from being hurt by every person i care about except my family.
Even a friend that i really care about?
Really?
C'mon.
Im tired of being there all the time and being at the mercy of someone i care about,
just cause i care and love someone doesnt mean they have that advantage.
It really hurts you know?
To be treated like that.
So please.
Don't do that.
You aren't the only one who's hurting.
Im sorry i can't help and understand.
But im in no position to help anyway.
So you have to takecare of yourself.

Anyway!
No more sad stuff for now.
Freshman OG camp is next week!!!
3 days 2 nights(:
Hope it goes awesomely well:D if that's a word.
Will blog more bout it when m' back from it.

byee

❤ "" was Posted On: 3/24/2011 @11:07 AM | 0 lovely comments ✿

Hi peeps(;
didnt have much time to post yesterday, so here i am again.
Went to yl's house today.
Had fun there watching salt together(accompanied by little shrieks of, "angelina jolie is ssooooooo hottttt!!!")
By yl, of course, cause im not interested in WOMEN lol.
haha:D
But she is gorgeous, i love her style(:
Then after watching we went to look at a couple of videos.
We got bored after awhile, so went to the community centre at amk.
Going for church event tommorow, with family and yiling.
Sitting with sasa and her friends.
Seeyou guys when i've got more energy to blog.
Love ya.

Bye!

i don't know how i should feel.

❤ "" was Posted On: 3/17/2011 @9:16 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

say bye

today m gna say goodbye to my past.
byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
LOL.
was bored.
blog more tmrw.
And yl?
I love you too. you're a awesome friend.
And sorry bout the arm.

Nights all(:

❤ "say bye" was Posted On: 3/16/2011 @9:54 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

On The Outside Looking In

I've never been on the outside.

Hey guys(:
Today was fun, but right now i dont wanna talk bout it cause im tired.
Just blogging for fun.
And m' starting to feel that there are times when you desperately want to curse and sweat and scream your head off and yell and shout and slap someone and bitch at others, cause you just feel hurt and angry and lost and forgetful and confused and you don't know what to feel and in the end you just choose to be happy cause its the only thing you feel comfortable doing or rather, being.
So you just go about doing stuff you always do.
And it makes you happy to do just that i guess.
Aww crap my stomach suddenly feels crampy.
Shit man.

Gonna sleep now.

Why must you do this, really?
Go ahead.
In my mind, you aren't there anymore.
Just like how you treat me.

❤ "On The Outside Looking In" was Posted On: 3/10/2011 @9:34 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

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